#ESMEINK : “Love” Day 6

lightandlove

{ LOVE } 

Yesterday’s solstice, on a full moon, spoke of a summer of love, a bountiful harvest to come, new beginnings, letting go, addressing fears and relationships. Strangely, all topics I’ve been compelled to write about in my journals this past week.

Today I write about love in the light of this moon!

I love, love. Always have. I believe there is someone for everyone. I knew I would find true love, and then, finally I did. When I least expected it, and that’s a beautiful cliche.

Darkness is necessary for my growth.

I didn’t get married super young, and I’m glad. I came close to settling. A couple of times. Yesterday I mentioned that I’m grateful for my ugly relationships because of what I learned from them. Today, rather than refer to them as “ugly relationships”, I call them “the times that taught me about love”.

These times became dark, and scary. I ended up feeling hatred towards myself, and I developed walls which would eventually effect future relationships. For me, these dark moments were important and necessary.

Darkness is where all seeds begin. They can’t grow, blossom, or be appreciated by others if they’re not down in the cold dark dirt to lay roots, and start growing. And grow, I did. I knew what I would and would not accept in a relationship. I knew what things I was willing to let go. I knew that morals had to match. I knew that Self growth was something I never wanted to be frowned upon, or discouraged. I knew how much I was willing to give back. I became ready for love, but didn’t realize it until love smacked me in the face.

{True love.}

When Stacy and I met, we fell in love fast. So fast it was frightening. We decided to just go with it.

He accepted me for where I was at in my life. A lost soul, in need of real love. He helped me break down my walls when I was ready. He wasn’t afraid of my baggage. He accepted my past, and wanted a future. It seemed too good to be true, and wasn’t.

There are so many stages of love, and I don’t’ know how to explain them. All I know, is hindsight is beautiful. I love reflecting on where we’ve been, how far we’ve come, the beautiful moments, the challenges. We are entering our 7th year together this month. Rough patches in a good healthy relationship are pretty easily forgotten. They are normal. It means that we are, and always will be our own divine, individual selves, working together to achieve a feel-good, meaningful spiritual life.

We take the time to self love, in order to better love each other. We support one another in our decisions, knowing that our belief systems are aligned and keep us strong. We believe in each other, helping us believe in ourselves.

The future is bright with burning love.

{MANTRA}

Shima, shima, shima.

(Love, love, love.)

#ESMEINK Journal Entry by Lise-Marie Johnson

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