#ESMEINK : “Roots & The Base Chakra” Day 3

ROOTS

{Chakra #1  – Base}

chakras

I know that todays journal is one that I will be referring back to often. It’s one that I really feel needs a lot of attention and care. It will be ongoing work within me.

As I am preparing to address my roots and grounded-ness today, I’m reminded about the organs associated with the base chakra that i’ve been called to work on. Those organs/body parts are, the base of spine, legs, bones, feet, rectum and immune system. What’s interesting to me is connecting with how I feel in those physical areas. It’s truly amazing how our bodies are so connected to our spiritual needs. It reminds me how paying close attention to my body is so important. Listen, feel, and respond!

The base chakra is all about roots, family, feeling grounded, control, feeling a sense of belonging, honour.
It’s referred to as the “tribal” chakra as well, referring to group identity and belief patterns. It’s our connection to belief systems that can shape our future and give us some sense of belonging.
I also strongly believe that when certain beliefs don’t serve you in your life, find what does. I’ve gotten lost in this aspect more than once, but I know that I am on the right path today.

Fears within this chakra are connected to physical survival, abandonment of a group or loss of physical order.
Strenghts within this chakra relate to family identity, bonding, tribal honour code, the support and loyalty that give a person a sends of safety and a connection to the physical world, or being comfortable living in “this” body.

I think the most important thing to remember within this chakra, is “all is one”. My connection to nature and her energy is how I become grounded and plant my roots. Earth interconnects all people and all humanity.

I know that to maintain health within this chakra, I must address personal tribal issues. So here is where I begin.

BUILDING, AND LETTING GO.

It has taken a long time for Calgary to feel like home to me. And although in the last year I’ve really settled in with new friends, I’m still not feeling grounded. Part of my soul work tonight begins with making a commitment to myself to build a clan. Family. Tribe. The first chakra speaks of “tribe”. People who are committed to finding themselves, and have similar values to me. Like minded individuals, who are not afraid to live and love outside of any box. Ones who dare to let their freak flags fly. Free spirits, rebels, humans who care about the planet and one another. Folks who understand the importance of educating younger generations about our cultures around the world. I want to be surrounded people who believe in the power of energy, and are searching and evolving and growing their souls on a daily basis. I commit not just to forming friendships such as these, but releasing the ones that no longer serve me, or steal my energy. Only growth, only grounding. I have to release the people and things that hold me back.

Ending friendships is hard, and awkward. There is no easy way to do it. But I give myself permission to have the life I dream of. I give myself permission to love myself wholly, which means feeding my heart with goodness, and being surrounded with the friends and family that make my world amazing. I will allow myself to grow, and learn from my elders, peers and children.
I allow myself to let go. Of stress from poor relationships, fear, doubt, and all things that do not serve me in my life.

Today I feel incredible gratitude for the family I’ve got. I’m camping with my husband, kids and inlaws! (yes-with wifi-which is a first for me, but I’ve got to keep up with the journal momentum. Day 3!!!)
Not only did I enter into a marriage with an amazing husband, but I’ve gained an incredible extended family with a mother and father in law who would die for their family. I feel like I’ve been a part of the “tribe” since the day I met them. The same goes for my brother and sister in law. And while we all have our differences, they love unconditionally. It is amazing. So today I let that resinate in my soul.

FAMILY
{groundedness}

I’m blessed (an absolute understatement) to have an amazing family. Mom, dad, brothers, in laws, husband, children, and large extended family. I love them all so much. And I feel how much they love me too.

I have a void that has always left me with questions. And while sometimes i’m at peace with it, other times I’m not. The older I get, the more I feel I need answers.

Being adopted, in my eyes, is an amazing blessing, and was he most loving act of kindness that I could have been given. I’d some day like to thank my birth parents for that. I am so grateful for this gift.

I long to know about my biological history. Where I came from, what traits I have in common with these blood relatives, whether or not I have siblings, nieces, nephews, grandparents that are alive…endless questions.

I have to thank my brother Luke, for pointing something out that I never had considered when I was pregnant with my first babe. He said, “Hey Lise, do you realize that when you have this baby, that it will be the first blood relative of yours that you will ever get to meet?” That blew me away. Complete new meaning to having children! Love my two crazy maniacs so much. They are like me in so many ways. And it’s opened my eyes to who I am, and how different I am than my own parents. I hadn’t realized how different I was until having my own kids. How sweet these realizations are!
Damn, I love life.

With no success of reaching my bio parents throughout canada’s adoption/re-uniting processes, I’ve taken a step in a totally different direction and wonder where it may lead. It’s a bit random, but it may actually get me some answers.

I’ve spent years in my head preparing for what I would say if I met my birth parent(s). I’m prepared for the possibility that they may not be alive. I’m prepared for the possibility that they may want nothing to do with me. I’m prepared for every possible scenario. I’ve thought about it for enough years now.

My adopted {true} parents are amazing, and have always said they would help me if I was ever interested in finding my bio parents. That is LOVE.

There is just a part of me longing to find a piece of the puzzle that is missing about me. I’ve never felt completely grounded. I’ve always been searching for who I am, and it’s been hard. I’ve always been easily influenced by people, i feel, until my 30’s. I would be in relationships where I would morph into this person I thought I was and who I knew my partner(s) wanted me to be. It was so false, and exhausting. I gave away so much of myself for so many years, because I didn’t take the time to really evaluate who I was, or who I wanted to be. Of course, In my late 30’s I now have a strong understanding of who I am and where I am going. I now stand up for what I believe in. If I don’t like something, I’m not afraid to say it. I know more about who I am now, more than ever. And it’s so cool! I started to really evaluate what speaks to me truly, and the one thing I recall that has always been strong in my heart and soul is spirituality, and energy. I can’t help but wonder how much of that is a part of my ancestral heritage.

I can’t wait to see what comes of this new search. I can’t explain why I feel that knowing more about my ancestors will help me to feel grounded, or know more about myself, when all I need to do is look within me, and to mother earth. But I just feel the push forward in this. I hope to find truth, and gain closure, if not anything more. Then I know I can move forward with whatever information I have and know that the answers I have will be enough.

{BALANCING ACTIVITES}

To help myself feel grounded, I will spend more time in nature-especially bear foot. I will garden more. I will relax and spend more quality time with my family, and really connect with them on a deeper level.

{MANTRA}

Today I love and accept my family and friends as my tribe. They are a part of me.
I believe If we are meant to meet, we will. At the right time in our lives. (Or in another life)
I accept letting go of what and whom does not serve me in this lifetime.
I accept that you may let me go too.
I feel grounded today because I receive love from family, friends, and myself. Mother earth is always here, and I connect to her vastness and power which further grounds me.
I accept things that I cannot change in my search for my birthparents and answers regarding them.
Build tribe, let go, connect, ground, accept.

#ESMEINK Journal Entry by Lise-Marie Johnson

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